Gosh, I found out more than I wanted to know. But damn u sure do eat the pu$$y like your life depended on it. Hmm decisions.

To blog or not to blog that is the question. Seems these days my random thoughts end up on Twitter or FB.

Hindsight is 20/20

So around 1 AMish i get the following txt msg from my exhusband: thank you for always loving me and being by me through good and bad. I promise u i will be a better man 4 u, my son, my family, and God. I luv u seanna. I always will.

I responed: I'm glad your working on bettering yourself.

I'm not sure what he thinks is going to happen, but I'm not for going backwards.

I think I got it now......

You wouldn't spit on me if I was on fire. ;) Don't worry I won't be asking you for any more favors.

21 day fast

I'm on the last week of my 21 day financial fast. And boy it is an eye opener. I've seen that I spend entirely too much money on the non essentials and (not that I didn't know it before) my debt is out of control. I go through a cycle of paying the same bills off every year, only to have them even higher by the end of that year. This is a cycle that has to stop (yes I've said it before), but I'm SERIOUS this time. For Real For Real, lol.

Now the concept of the fast is that i was not to spend money on anything that was not a necessity. So that meant, no fast food/resturants, not even buying lunch, basically nothing beyond normal household bills, medicine, etc. The bare essentials. Of course I could buy groceries, but not more than budgetted and nothing more than what I put on my list. And since I have groceries, the expectation is that I bring my lunch to work daily.

I won't lie and say that I was perfect in my fast. I failed a lil partially, because i didn't have the book associated with this fast until, I was already a week and a half into it. Also, I have not read far enough in the book to catch up to where I'm at in the process. But I do plan to do it again, after March. So what I spent outside of the necessities:

• Two 25 packs of DVR+s = $14 total. Well this was for a good thing. One of my friend's mother passed and I volunteered to make copies of the memory dvd they had made. I didn't know that gifts were not permitted during the fast until after I made the promise. At least not gifts that required you to spend money, as apposed to using what you already have.
• Two music downloads on itunes = $30. Now I'm just rounding up, because I don't know the exact cost. But I figure, the cds were not more than 15 a piece, probably not more than $10, but I rather confess more than less.

So in two weeks I've only spent $45 on none essentials. And there will be one more, I pro missed a friend I would go to a party with her on next Tues; its $10 for entry. I'll drink at home, lol.

This weekend I will be working on a budget, which is day 7's task. (like i said, I got the book late.) Day 1-6 required me to write journal entries, which I only did mentally. I plan to journal on here, the things I'm supposed to do daily and will also include the name of the book for anyone who is interested. So there will be full disclosure, short of my budget. Yall don't need to know all that about my finances, lol. I'll just discuss what i learned from doing it.

So I speak into existence: 2010 will be better for my finances!!!!!

u have no credibility

I wouldn't believe you if you said the sky was blue.


nothing I hate more than a liar. So why do I keep allowing myself to be sucked in by you????? I'm doing it to myself. Can't even blame you at this point. This is on me. You've showed me time and time again what you're all about, but I want to see what I want to see. Time to take them rose colored glasses off. I'm tired of beating my head against this wall.

DUECES.........

PPL

will show you better than they can tell you, who and what they are all about. I have learned to not hold to much regard on words and much more on action.

so,

you tell me you love me, but you're never there when I need you - then you are full of sh*t..
you say you're gonna pay me back, but you avoid me, duck my calls, - then you are full of sh*t..
you're only around when U NEED something, but MIA all other times - then you are full of sh*t..

ppl need to stop tryna sell pipe dreams and making promises they have no intension on keeping.

Stop being full of sh*t, I'm sure you can smell yourself by now.