Damn its over already

I vote we bring the weekend back. Ya'll with me????

Well I was actually off all weekend. I didn't have to work my 2nd gig and I really didn't have anything planned. I just chilled and went with what ever the weekend took me.

So what did I do?

Friday nite. I already had plans with B (one of the guys I spoke of last post. ) We went to Crossroads. Now crossroads aint really my normal hang out spot. For 1. They don't play enough R&B/Rap and 2. They play too much island music. Don't get me wrong I like to dance to Raggae/Sulca (sp)/ etc. but I can only take music that I can't understand da hell they saying for so long, before it gets old. But, I knew that before I said I would go and I'm open to different things.

Now I've always prided myself as being a decent dancer and one who can adapt. But that nite I felt completely out of place. I felt like I couldn't catch the beat (at least not the beat everyone else was rocking too) to save my life. I felt so akward and embarassed. But he stayed by me all nite. Eventhough we laid out the club rules before hand.

Club rules=although we went together, we would not trip if one or us danced with another party.

So we danced, he led me by putting his hands on my hips in order to get them to rock like his. And he displayed a lil PDA every now and again. I was a lil surprised at that. He totally eliminated any other play he coulda got that nite, by kissing on me.

From there we went home, went to sleep, then I went home went to sleep some more, whle he went to work.

Saturday. Metroman calls me asks how was my nite. (He knew I was going to the club, just not that it was with B) I tell him it was cool. He said he was expecting a call from me when I left the club, so he stayed up till 3 am (He had to be at work at 6). I do usually call him all drunk and horny when I leave the club. But last nite, he didn't get that call. He then asks about the text messages again. I tell him it a friend (like i said the last time he asked), I hesistated a lil, and then added that I've been chillen with. He asks why I didn't tell him that b4. I said cause I didn't feel like getting into it. He said he wasn't mad. But he didn't want me to lie to him about it. Then he revealed a secret of his own. GREAT. But I wasn't even mad, I didn't even care. He stated the ball was in my court, if I want to see him or talk. Its up to me to make that move. Umm ok.

Later that nite, I was supposed to get up with B to go to the movies. Instead I go to Jaspers to meet Bree and her Boo. I decide I want to get my drank on. So I took my anti-Url pills. So I could get a drink I haven't had in 4ever. I wanted the "I ain't nevah scurred" That good ole Bone Crusher. I had one normal sized one and two mega ones. Yeah I was done. I asked the bartendar I'm crushing on (going 3 years strong now): "What are you gonna DO to me for my Bday?" I don't member his response but it was something sexual. LOL. Liquid courage @ it again. LOL. While there about 11ish I get a text from B inquiring what was up. Told him I was still @ jaspers. So he asked me to bring him something to eat. I said cool. Ordered his food. Then delivered it. Crashed there.

Well Sunday morning I woke up before him, and I had this rumbling in my tummy. I felt a fart coming on. So I held it in, releasing my hold when I thought I had it under control. So I lay my head back down. Then all of a sudden out of no where, this loud long fart escapes me. I immediately lifted my head and looked his way with my mouth hanging. I looked at him as if I thought he did it. His eyes were still closed. Thank god he was still asleep, thank god there was no smell associated with this noise. I collected myself and went to the bathroom to expeal the rest of this air, that obviously wanted out. I was so embarassed. Took some asprin to get rid of my headache. Went home crashed all dang day. Well in between going to the bathroom. Yes my stomach was under attack all damn day. I never got sick. Just kept running to the toliet.

About 4pm finally got out of bed and started washing clothes. I did nothting else but watch TV all day.

That was my weekend how was yours?

How come

when i was doing me for well over a year. I had no1 knocking down my door. But as soon I decide to date, I get 2 vying for my attention. This will not end well. I'm the not the juggling type. Someone will get their feelings hurt. It may be me. What if I make the wrong decision. GRRRRRRRRR. Unconsciously, I will end up pushing one of them away.

Am I falling out of infatuation with him, cause he's giving me attention...

you lying next to me, but I'm texting him

funny how you thought it was your business to ask me who I was texting.

funny how I simply said a friend and felt somehow I was lying, but didn't want to lie. I could have easily said Bree. But that didn't come out my mouth.

with him in the afternoon and you that same nite.

him asking all the right questions, but I don't have the answers

I may need to go back to being solo....I can't think straight. I don't know what I want.

Maybe cause I don't know what it means to date, what its like, all I've ever known was a relationship.

I keep telling myself I don't want one....but I think I'm just lying to myself. I want someone there, to talk to, to go places with, to go home to, to long for only me, without the games....

I don't know how to take what ppl say to me, I second guess it, think its game/lies.

Hood Classic Movie:

0- Oh no he didn't

So yesterday I'm on the phone as I get on the elevator at the metro station to get to my car. The doors open, I get on push the button for my floor (4th), and continue my conversation. Others hit buttons for the 3rd and 5th floors. Then all of a sudden, I'm being pushed into ppl at my right as I see this lanky hand and moving in front of me to hit the 6th floor button (the top/last floor). I look to my left to see who owns this hand. I give him the evil eye and finish my conversation. As soon as I hung up, I ask: I guess you couldn't ask me to hit the button huh.

him: I did. But you were too busy on the phone.
me: Are you serious. The door hadn't even closed yet. Did you really think you were in danger of not getting to the 6th floor, if the button wasn't hit right then. Shit.
him: you don't have to cuss at me.
me: I did not cuss at you, I said a curse word. You should know the difference. Besides I'm a grown ass women so I will say what I want.
him: you're not acting like it. everything is ok though. I aint gonna argue with you.
me: everything will be ok, when you keep your hands off me.
him: like I said I'm not gonna argue with you.
me: well you don't have to argue you can shut up while I continue to talk.

we arrive at the 4th floor my stop.

him: you can leave now.

me: kiss my ass. Now I'm cussing you out, see the difference you punk ass bitch or bitch ass nicca....I'm not sure which on he got, but he was definately called a bitch.

him: mumble mumble something as the elevator doors closed.

Now was I wrong for reacting the way I did. Maybe if he were going to the 2nd floor, I might have understood his urgency. But this nicca was riding the elevator all the way to the top. Not to mention I was not the only one near the buttons. Obviously the other ppl either didn't hear hime either or ignored his bitch ass. I was so heated during this exchange. My voice was all flicked and I could hardly breathe right. Thats how pissed I was. I was at the heights point of pisstivity.

Now if I were petty I would have stayed on the elevator until he got off, cussing him out all the way up. But I had places to go, I didn't have time to be petty. I told a couple ppl about it, then I let it go. Until this morning, when I got to the metro station. The whole situation came back to me. So I ended up wasting my 100th post on that dumb bitch.


HAPPY MUTHAFAWKING 100TH POST TO ME.

While I'm at it, I might as well tell you about this experience I had at walmart a few months ago. Another OH no he didn't moment.

So metro man and I are digging through walmarts, $5.50 DVD bin. That is one never ending pit. anywho, while we digging for movies I found colors. here's the link for the cover: http://findcoolmovies.com/coversus/colors.jpg blogger acting stank and won't put the picture up...... Now colors is a real throw backk movie. (Flashback: I am a nightmare walking phychopath talking, king of my jungle, just a ganta stalking.) I absolutely loved this movie growing up, even had the sound track. Wait youtube got it on lock as usual.

insert movie here. :

Hood Classic Movie:

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I think we know WJWD but WWTDJD

Let it go for 2007... By T. D. Jakes

There are people who can walk away from you. And hear me when I tell you this!
When people can walk away from you: Let them walk.

I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.
When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]
People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay.

Let them go.

And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got to know when it's dead.

You've got to know when it's over...

Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay.

Let them go!!

If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to........

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains......

LET IT GO!!!

If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth.....

LET IT GO!!!

If someone has angered you ........

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction.....

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents

LET IT GO!!!

If you have a bad attitude.........

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better......

LET IT GO!!!

If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship.......

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves.....

LET IT GO!!!

If you're feeling depressed and stressed .........

LET IT GO!!!

If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying "take your hands off of it," then you need to......

LET IT GO!!!

Let the past be the past. Forget the former things. GOD is doing a new thing for 2007!!!

LET IT GO!!!

Get Right or Get Left .. think about it, and then .

LET IT GO!!!

*"The Battle is the Lord's!"

I don't know about ya'll but I truely needed this message sent to me via email. I hope you get the same out of it as I did.