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Looks like I won't get to 100 before 2007. Oh well. What's the rush?

Anywho, I've managed to waste most of my last day of 2006. I was supposed to be cleaning. Did a lil here a lil there but nothing is completed. Sounds like my 2006. I made a list of things I wanted to do in 2006. None of which are completed. But I need to be accountable.

So here's the list I made in January 06 and my status to date.

Plans for 06: I wont bother make resolutions i wont keep, but i will state my plans...

1. To loose some more weight, l've been maintaining, but i want to loose about 50 more pounds, so its time i get back on that....So i will use my blog to track that, including embarassing before pics....oh lord, carmel's gonna hold me accountable for this.... thanks ma

Well its started out promising, but I've some how managed to gain some weight back. Since I can't afford to buy new clothes in a bigger size, I will have to grab ahold of this situation before it gets out of hand. So this moves to 2007.

2. Study for, Take, and Pass the CPA exam. Its time i get refocused on my career and my future.

I have studied for and taken 2 parts of the CPA exam, but have not passed anything to date. 1 I missed passing by 2 points. The other I failed miserably. (Thats what happen when you don't study like you should.) Well I have no choice but to pass all four parts before the end of 2007. The new requirements for taking the exam will take effect for all those who have not passed it by 12/31/07. If I don't pass I will have to go back to school and have 150 credits before I can attempt to take it again. So its definately put up or shut up time. I sit for one part early Jan. Lets hope this will be the start of my passing streak.

3. File for divorce. I have the papers, i just need to file, that costs money, but hey i'll just charge it like every thing else i've purchased for christmas.

Well as you read a few posts ago, I've made no steps towards this divorce. So other than the CPA exam, this will be the first order of business for 2007. It is time there is nothing for me to wait for nor holding me back. I will call the lawyer and get the ball rolling before February gets here.

4. Pay off unnecessary debt. This will start with my tax refund check, i will pay off everything i can, then devise a plan and stick to it, for paying off any remaining debt.

Well I did pay off all I could with my refund check last year. However, I ran my cards back up. What did I buy, buring me futher in debt....new garage door, 2 trips to MIA, clothes, fixing Ma's car, dry cleaning, paintings, and other things I just had to have. And I did not make the plan, like I should have. Single Ma hipped me on some things I will definately have to implement this year. Again I will pay off all i can with my taxes and use some of the tools she gave me to elimate the remaining debt and better manage my funds. I was supposed to be donw working the 2nd job after 1 year. However, if I ever want to be out of debt, I need to continue making this sacrifice and work both jobs. In 2007, I would also like to refinance my house. Maybe this will help free up some disposible income.

5. Love. I will not look for it, but won't turn it away. First and foremost, i will defenately start loving myself, projecting that love through my actions. No more destructive behavior for 2006. Things i've done in 2005, will have to cease immediately. They were very unhealthy actions.

As for love, in 2006 I kept myself off the market for most of the year. I spent time loving me and focusing on me. Although that meant that for well over a year, I had no relations and at times I was a lil lonely. It was what I needed. I definately needed some me time. I've let Metro man in, but not all the way. I still don't think I'm ready for a relationship. Don't think its time for me to be anyone's girlfriend. Maybe 2007 will change all that. I'm open to dating and meeting new ppl. So we will see if 2007 brings me a new love. Either way I'm happy and thats whats most important.

AS YOU CAN READ I DIDN'T COMPLETE NOT ONE 2006 PLAN. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT, THAT'S OK. I CANT CHANGE THE PAST. SO I WON'T WASTE THE ENERGY BEATING MYSELF UP OVER WHAT I HAVE NOT DONE. INSTEAD I WILL LOOK FORWARD AND DEAL WITH TODAY AND TOMORROW, SINCE THAT IS ALL I HAVE CONTROL OVER ANYWAY. AS FOR THE PAST, IT WILL ONLY SERVE AS LESSONS LEARNED NO MORE DWELLING OR LIVING IN THE PAST.

I'M A WORK IN PROGRESS. SO LETS START PROGRESSING. :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE. HOPEFULLY YOU WILL ACHEIVE ALL YOU SET OUT TO ACHIEVE IN 2007.

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Being broke is no joke. I have $16 in my checking account, have not paid my car notes, mortgage is due soon, I'm in need of an oil change, and I need gas to get home.


Fortunately my broke is not broke broke....I still have a couple hundred in one savings account and a coouple hundred in a checking account I rarely use....I have $25 go to thatchecking account every payperiod....Oh I almost forgot about the $80 I have sitting in paypal and my $250+ in my ING account. But I have no intentions of touching that. So at the very least I will have my oil change and gas to get me home. :) i get my second gig pay check Thursday and my big check Monday; if not earlier, since Monday is a holiday. So it ain't as bad as I thought. I will just have to do some juggling.

At least I did not buy one christmas present on my credit cards this year. All paid for with cash. It may have made things a lil tight. But at least I will not be any deeper in debt than I was prechristmas shopping.


So to some it up, I'm Broke but not Broke Broke. If you want to contribute to my account, feel free to paypal me. :) I thank you in advance for your generous donation. Tiz the season.

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Let the count down begin (4 from 100, yippie)......

I hope everyone had a Holy Jolly Christmas/Kwanza/Hauneka/etc....

Wishing you and your many happy blessings and a prosperous new year.

I'm off work till 1/3/07. I'm at my mom's house until at least this Friday. Hopefully I'll get to see Honey-Libra before I depart VA. If I leave on Friday, I'll be able to get drunk with GTL and TTD. Hopefully Kween will be there too. I'll try to check in and see how you poor souls at work are doing. :) Don't be too envyous. I'll be studying for the Audit section of the CPA exam, while I'm off. I think I sit on 1/12/07. Something like that, lol.

BIG FAT LIAR

Thats all I am. I've been separted for 2 years now. And I continually lie to ppl about my status. Someone this morn just asked if my husband AND i were going out of town for the holidays. My response... yeah we're going to va bch to see my mom.....Coworker says and then to see his parents too. Me: yes. When I know damn well I'm not getting in a car with that nicca going no where.

I'm not sure why I keep lying about it. Maybe cause I feel its none of their business or cause I've been lying so long to some ppl, I don't know where to begin to tell the truth.

With the truth I know questions will come. Questions I won't want to answer. Questions I don't have to answer. I guess its just easier to lie.

Lying has made me have 2 separate lives. I never mix ppl who know I'm separated with ppl who don't know. If I have a party, only one group is invited. I can't continue to live this way something has to give.

Speaking of which, excuse me as I have a conversation with myself......

CHCLT CALL THE FUCKING LAWYER. YOU LET THIS DRAG ON FAR TO LONG. YOU WERE NOT SUPPOSED TO GO INTO 2007 MARRIED. BUT YOU ARE. WHY????? YES I KNOW YOU ARE LAZY, HAVE BEEN ALL YOUR LIFE. YES YOU PROCRASTINATE. I KNOW YOU DON'T WANT TO SPEND THIS MONEY. BUT THIS MARRIAGE IS HOLDING YOU BACK. YOU CAN NOT MOVE FORWARD UNTIL YOU DEAL WITH THE PAST. YOU ARE NOT ALLOWING YOURSELF TO OPEN UP, BECAUSE OF YOUR BAGGAGE. STOP LETTING HIM CONTROL YOU. YOU ARE BETTER THAN THIS. STAYING ATTACHED TO HIM WILL ONLY BRING YOU DOWN. YOU KNOW THIS NOT GET OFF YOUR LAZY ASS AND DO WHAT NEEDS TO BE DONE. JUST THINK OF HOW HAPPY YOU WILL BE WHEN SEE HIM FOR THE LAST TIME IN COURT.

AGAIN I ASK, WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU WAITING FOR?????????????????????????????

And the winner is

Blogland chose Group #2. The judges at work chose Group #3. My group was #2.


I think the judges robbed us. How the hell you gonna beat a live Santa and Carolers.

But its whateva. I'll be back with some more writting later..

And can someone bring me some lemon flavored theraflu.

At this rate I'll be at 100 b4 the end of the year.......

:)

Here are the pics for your vote.

Thanks for voting for my group TTD, now do an impartial vote, LOL. And Stilt, you know i'm the sexiest. :)

Group 1. 1st pick is the door (cock your head to the right....Yeah i'm being lazy). They have Christmas Cards and pics of everyone in their group. Next a lil fire place scene with a dog laying there.















Ok Blogger is actin stank...i hope you can see the photobucket pics.

Groups 2 : Has a snowman on the door, snow and pengeons on the floor marching to an igloo. Inside the igloo there's a treem, snowflakes hanging from the ceiling, and snow on the walls. They also had a live santa and carolers for the judges.














Group 3. Had a house on the outside of their door. Gift wrap on their cube walls, hand made ornaments of the cabinets, a christmas pole with presents underneith, and a fire place, where they read the night before christmas









So what's your favorite?

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Ok I've been a lil busy the last couple of days. My office is having our christmas activities this week. With that, we are having an office christmas decoration contest. Each division had to decorate a designated area of their office.

So I will come back with pictures, and let ya'll vote on who should win. :) I won't tell which one my office is to eliminate favoritism.

DON'T BE QUESTIONING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm a grown ass women dawg....

WHY DIDN'T I ANSWER MY PHONE, YOU ASK (MORE LIKE DEMANDED TO KNOW)

You asked this question like you ALWAYS answer you phone.......NOT!!!!! Do I berate you with questions, not say hello, and instead commence with a interrogation??????......NO.....CAUSE IT DON"T MATTER WHY YOU AINT ANSWER THE PHONE, WE TALKING NOW!!!!!!!

But let me entertain your ass for one moment. You can insert these explanations whenever you wanna know why I did answer MY phone when you called.....

• My phone never rang......(As was the case this morning....I had no missed call from you. And yes I know you heard a ring on your side.....but that does not mean it came through on my phone and since I don't work for Sprint I canNOT tell you why this happened.)
• I didn't hear my phone ring.
• My music was too loud.
• The speaker part of my phone was facing the seat, so the ringer was muffled.
• The ringer I had on was not loud enough.
• And if you keep calling me with all the questions....Ima start telling you its because I didn't feel like talking to your ANGRY ASS. Simmer down TUFFIE...

I swear we are two angry peas in a pod. 2 ppl with attitudes are bound to have confrontation. I love ya to death, but you need to start WOOOSAWING and RUBBING YOUR EARS before you call me. Ma it aint that serious. You gonna give yourself a heart attack or stroke with all that ANGER.....

SO there you go KG your shout out.....AND STOP LURKING ON MY BLOG, COMMENT TRICK.....LOL.....And your call making sure I got in safe, I guess that as close to an apology I'ma get.....I accept. *HUGS* LMAO.

AND BK Don't be threatening me for my stars everyday I don't post. :P *kicks shins*

hmm my weekend

wasn't much to it....I was actually off all weekend...the last one I'll see till next month. Fine with me, cause I will be off from Xmas till after the new year. :) What will I do *evil grin*Anywho this week, lets see....well I worked friday nite...so i just went home.

Sat. I visited metroman at work...He claimed he needed his hat...Booo you know you wanted to see me. While there i revealed a secret. I hate lying. It was eating me up. He didn't seem to care. We'll see. From there I went to bath and body works to get a gift for my co-worker. We celebrated her for surviving cancer and getting to her 31st bday. Yes i said 31. She's the first person near my age that I know who had to survive this battle. She did it with her head held high. I didn't talk to her much during the ordeal at least not about it. Mostly because I'm a big baby. I didn't know what to say. And all I wanted to do was cry. I figured she has enough of that. She needed someone strong and I could not be that. But I told her, if she needed someone to cry with I was there. She never needed me for that. She kept a stiff upper lip through it all. A very brave women. It was a very nice get together. But in true black ppl fashion, although the party was from 4 to 8pm, ppl arrived as late as 7:45 pm.....da hell. LOL. Well for this party everyone had to introduce themself, say how they knew HER, and why she was great. She loved that part. Not to mention the crown she wore and being waited on hand and foot. Thats my girl, keeping it fabulous.

After leaving there, I got lost of course. Then my cell phone died. Horrible. Why do I always get lost in Bmore.......finally made it to Greenbelt around 9:30pm. I was supposed to meet up with Bree. Went to Jaspers....No bree. Used lil Kobe's phone....She would not answer.....So I went to 2nd spot....Friday's ....No Bree....Used Ron's phone, still no answer....So i figured I'd try her at home.....Truck in driveway.....She answers the door. She was dodging them negro's calls....lol. I was like well if you checked your messages you woud have known it was me trick......she didn't want to go out anymore...I knew shoulda went home....But we go out to some spot called The Game....I didn't drink. :) noone liked that though. Why can't I be sober.....Geez...Finally got my phone to stay on long enough to see metroman's number...called him from bree's phone...he sounded a lil salty he couldn't reach me....Oh well. He has my car chager for this phone and he wasn't the one lost with no cell..so simmer down.....When i got home....I heard a salty message he left on my phone...he said I can't believe your phone is off....I had to laugh...

Sunday...tried to catch up on tivo, permed my hair, hit the barber shop, went to target, met bree and headed to jaspers.....ate, had a shot, headed to Friday's.....left at 9:30pm already later than expected....stopped to see metro man...then headed home.....

Monday....stomach tore up....stayed home.....caught up on tivo.....im up to Sunday now....I was a week behind....my friend from Chitown called me....angry cause i haven't called him in forever....still salty because I wouldn't tell him what went down with Me and that nicca, more mad cause I shared it on the net but wouldn't tell him.....I told him this was not about him, i was done talking about it when he asked about the situation...so i just directed him to my blog....who knew he would read every last entry....lol. I mean i didn't care that he read it. if i did he wouldn't have gotten the link.....but i didn't think he would take the time to read everything he missed. He'll get over it. He has no choice....It is what it is. Got off the phone to talk to metro man...he asked me what about him bothered me....i told him truthfully, hoping he didnt think i was selfish.....He asked me a few days ago, where was this going....I told him what I've been telling him.....We are getting to know each other, I don't want to be in a relationship...I just want to date and weigh my options before committing again....My reason....I've been in some type of relationship, since HS....I don't know how to date......I need to learn....I don't need to jump into anything. I'm doing me.

Metro man came through last nite...watched a movie fell asleep.....i got up a lil late...So he drove me to work, since I knew there would be no parking at the station..(back story: i can't find my Dec reserved metro sticker to save my life. so if i'm not at the station by 7:45 i will not have a place to park. I hope metro will send me another set of stickers for this month....Choc don't do early mornings)...So he has to pick me up tonite and take me to my car.....

well that's it....nothing interesting this weekend......

I know it aint my Bday yet but

single ma made me do it

Your Birthdate: February 7

You are an island. You don't need anyone else to make you happy. And though you see yourself as a loner, people are drawn to you. Deep and sensitive, you tend to impress others with your insights. You also tend to be psychic - so listen to that inner voice! Your strength: Your self sufficiency Your weakness: You despise authority Your power color: Maroon Your power symbol: Hammer Your power month: July

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